A Girl's Heart Story

笔写巨蟹座的女人，我非常担心自己不够客观。从小到大，身边总是有好几个巨蟹座的好友，我似乎对这个星座下出生的女子，有着特别的感情。我想，那或许是她 们温暖的个性，很容易赢得友谊的缘故。而当彼此真的成为朋友之后，就是你一会儿陪她高兴，一会儿陪她伤心的日子了。我有时觉得她们善解人意的可爱，有时又 气她们敏感、情绪化的莫名其妙。而至于想要跟她们谈恋爱的你呢！这样的感受恐怕比我有过之而无不及！>> > 　　>> >>> >>> 　　温和又体贴的巨蟹座女子，很容易给人「恋爱」的感觉。如果你是一个追求「爱的感觉」的人，选择她，你肯定不会失望。巨蟹座的女人通常会给男人一种「如 果失去你的爱，我的人生便毫无意义」的信心。这真是很多男人梦寐以求的感受。不过，如果你只是个把恋爱当游戏的人，请千万不要去招惹她，因为，第一，这对 一个真情真意的巨蟹女子来说真是太残了，巨蟹座的女人是玩真的，感情绝不是她们轻易亵渎的东西；第二，对于某些蟹座的女子来说，如果她的爱上你，想要摆脱 她可没有这么容易。你应该知道被螃蟹钳住想脱身有多难的，是不是？她的缠斗精神会让你非常惊讶，我看过一个背叛巨蟹座女子的男人的下场。此起《致命的吸引 力》好不到那儿去。当然，只有极少数的蟹座女子会有如此杀伤力，不过，你还是别心存侥幸为妙。> 　　>>　　她的温柔体贴，以及全心全意的爱会让你感动的不得了，很少有女人会让你觉>> 得自己是那么的重要。但是她的情绪化也很可能弄得你几乎疯掉。她非常没有安全感，敏感而且容易受伤。常常你的一句无心之言，就会弄得她泪流满面，或者生气 不安。蟹座的女人有两种，当然正常的时侯都如温暖的太阳一样可爱，但是闹起情绪的时侯，一种是带雨梨花型，另一种就是定时炸弹型。如果你遇上的是前者，情 况比较幸运，平常多带两包面纸就好了。若是后者，恐怕精神压力就比较大些了。> 　　>>　　让她心情阴晴不定的原因有千百>> 种，可能是因为她忽然觉得你好久不曾拥抱她了。也可能是你刚才对她女朋友说话的语气太温柔了。甚至可能是你刚才开玩笑，说她新烫的头发像鸟窝。对了！我忘 了提醒你，最好不要随便批评，或是揶揄你那蟹座的小女人，她几乎脆弱的经不起一丝丝爱人对她的挑剔。总而言之，包括月亮的阴晴圆缺、海水的潮汐，都可能是 影响她情绪的原因，而她最大的隐忧，就是她始终在担心，担心自己是不是够好，担心你是不是不再爱她了，她经常需要你的证实。所以我认为，对你而言，最简单 的方法就是直接告诉她吧！> 　　>>　　我>> 有个巨蟹座朋友的老公告诉我，她每天起码问他十次「你还爱我吗？」而我另一个个性比较强烈的蟹座朋友干脆直接要求她的老公每天要说二十遍「我爱你」。你很 难相信对不对？但是我发誓，这是千真万确的。> 　　>>　　我想，除了真心爱她，没有更好>> 的相处之道了，但你必须切记爱她的方法绝不是姑息。当她闹情绪的时侯，给她温柔的安慰，等她心情平稳下来之后，你必须很诚恳的告诉她，她过度的情绪化，对 你造成了什么样的伤害！把你真实的感受让她知道，她是真心爱你的，她会知道应该适度的修正自己。千万不要一昧的息事宁人，你会把她宠坏的。蟹座女子有个奇 怪的特性，那就是如果你不告诉她「够了」，她就会不断的尝试，看你能够容忍她到什么地步。她似乎很难明白什么叫「适可而止」。到最后她的情绪化会到了自己 都无法控制的地步，当然，你也终究会忍无可忍的。>>> 　　>> 　　我有几个蟹座朋友的婚姻，就是这样出问题的！到最后她当后悔当初自己太任性。但是凭良心说，那个姑息养奸的丈夫，多少也该负些责任。怎么能在宠坏她之 后，再到外面去寻求温柔的慰藉呢？说也奇怪，当巨蟹座的女子感情出了问题后，她们采取的行动也会让你大为警讶；在伤心难过之余，蟹座的女子很可能会去告诉 丈夫的新欢，应该做什么菜才合他的口味；她可能会从洗衣店把他洗好的西装送到「他们」的住处；她更可能用私房钱帮他付信用卡的帐单。你不相信吗？我再发 誓，这是真的。当我的蟹座朋友告诉我她们的伟大事迹时，我也几乎昏倒。她们就是这样，有的时侯可恶的过分，有的时侯又好的过份。她需要你宠她，她也相对的 宠你。对蟹座女子来说，宠坏一个男人似乎是占有他的最好办法，即使你今天离开了她，等你想清楚了，迟早还是会回到她身边的，因为没人会像她那样爱你了　所 以，你应该明白，你必须学习用适当的方法爱她。如果你懂得相处之道，她会是个不可多得的妻子。你可以一生享受爱情的甜蜜，她会为你们的家一无保留的付出。 巨蟹座的女性还有一个特点，那就是平时她虽然一副脆弱、情绪化，一副没有你就活不下去的样子，但是真的当你们遭遇到现实中的问题，连你都绝望助的时侯，她 会变成一个坚强又有韧性的女人。你可以像孩子投进母亲怀抱一样的去依赖她，她会细心的医疗你的伤口，坚强的陪你共度难关。多数巨蟹座的女子都很有金钱观 念，懂得量入为出的道理。（除非她有一个挥霍的月座或上升星座）通常她只会在心情沮丧（觉得你不爱他）的时侯，才会乱花钱来平抚内心不安的情绪。为了你的 荷包着想，常常给她「爱的感觉」才是明智之举。　请用一种成熟而且负责的态度去爱她！不要在宠坏她之后，再责怪她！真心的爱一只蟹子你会得到丰富无比的回 馈。我衷心的希望我的每一位蟹座好友，都能遇到一位好男人

i have edited 'hope you will read this one day' post. i didnt really find out the truth directly but through someone who i know from him. i've found part of my answers and i'm still searching now. so now, i'm accepting, resting, searching, observing, waiting.

talking about myself, actually i'm a realistic person but not a materialistic person. i will not ask for LV Gucci all those branded stuff because i know i'm not qualified to carry those bags or anything and i only look at how much i have but not what i have (beg your pardon here, i will not ask but doesnt mean i will not accept, only if one day i'm so lucky XD). All i want is a man who really loves me and willing to give me a life just like now. so that i can eat and buy anything and go anywhere without worrying how much he has to give me and he will not suffer with the little money he left. i wont say i have and want a luxurious life now but an affortable life. i dont mean to show off here but wanna express how i feel.

as to many of the girls, who doesnt want a good life? yes, there are girls who are willing to live with guys eventhough they cant afford to give them good life. but i choose what i want lo... i have no comment about it.

anyway, yesterday i went out with my long-time-no-see friend---> colleen. i felt so much better when hanging out with friends, at least there was something to keep me from thinking what's not. i had a photoshoot yesterday @ sasa because she didnt wanna take it so she gave me as a present. it is the 1st photoshoot in my 1st 22-year-old life. unfortunately, it's bent by her accidentally. haiz.. so sad. but i managed to photoshop it so it's ok.

what's the point of living if I'm restricted from buying what I want like clothes?
she keeps saying I have a lot of clothes, dont buy anymore, I'm just a student bla bla bla...
SO? girls are born to shop man!!! cosmetics, skin care, clothes, shoes, accessories etc. NOT HOUSEHOLD!!! I dont care how many clothes i have. i want new clothes!!! I wanna make myself happy and shopping is the only way can make me happy. I've just broken up with him and somemore it happened to be 1 week before my b-day.

this year gonna be a fucked up year but i wont expect he'll sms me happy birthday. to be honest, he is not really my cup of tea cos he doesnt fit some of my criterias. i want him who is humorous and can make me laugh all the time. i want him who really loves me and wants to see me so much cos he misses me so much. i want him who means his words and not just saying but not doing it. it's ok if he doesnt wanna do it but dont say it just to make me feel he's so nice to me. i want him who is not keep saying he's bz working cant spend time with me, i dont believe that unless he has other reasons. i want him who has time management and keeps my words in his heart. I WANT A REAL MAN! is he? not at all... therefore, it's ok. i'm ok :)

confidence? i'll show my confidence. i'm not that ugly or fat actually. i have what it takes too. look at me. i'm pretty
sociable? i'm sociable in front of my close friends but not people who i only see them once a week or few hours.

anyway, my cousin and her bf came to kl for holiday during 16th-20th june. they kept counselling me. thanks to them so much. AND MY BRO ALSO!! my mom also la, is just that the things she said made me more down.

this was the second time i saw her bf since few years ago. dont judge him from the photo. he's not cool at all. act cool de... he's nice! he must be good to my cousin, if not i'll chop him like a pork chop.

photos with them during the days are in FB. not gonna post it here.


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actually, it's not that i did not realize the problem, i did realize it. but i left it behind because i like you very much and i didnt wanna face it so i lied to myself and kept walking. still, i gotta face it that day. it's inevitable. i've talked to someone who knows you quite a lot, which i think. she told me a lot of things that guys are like that. i've got to know a lot about you from her. i was thinking too much that actually you are not such person, even though it varies with other people's view about you. maybe i really misunderstood you. i'm too slow to realize the true problem 'cos i had never thought about it thoroughly, until now. we are unsuitable to each other. i've had been down for sometime, but i kept to myself. i was down until i didnt wanna wear that ring. she said something very make sense, our relationship was too tasteless and didnt really 在乎 each other very much. that's why we never fought and dont know what you and i want--- worse and worse. now i know why you kept giving me so much reasons/excuses just to avoid me. i was too slow and stupid until you have to tell me directly. 大家都有条件，但是就不是对方所要的。真可惜...

i will still miss you. but i hope one day when i talk to you, i know that i have no feeling on you anymore...